SHIVA

stale elder breath
spoils down on his
minty exhalations
which he pours like
sand...weightless and
infinite, it cleanses

a sound!
it's a sudden pucker
of his lips
and then a movement
toward her with
lips: two wax molds
of perfection and potential

wax that burns and dwells in the
chaotic curls that
it creates for itself
and then avoids
upon destruction

a moment is recalled:
an 18 block construction;
a tower

a new record!

excitement and awe
consume and inspire
the team

and in a moment of
pure zen with a moment
of fire in his eyes
he slashes
at it...

9/11 terrorists
crashing in horror
resonates

in his karate chop to
his own beloved work

he BURSTS into
tears..abhorred at
the reality of himself
his actions

he has truly
become the goddess
of creation and
destruction

 

gingerbread house making...so fun...and yes, remy does have a mohawk in this photo. 

loving the snow!! 

a wonderful gift to have under the tree...so sweet. 

remy loves to steal ALL FOUR stockings and just HUG THEM. so cute. 

the stool i am WORKING ON for annalee for christmas...LOVE BEING an AUNTIE already! 

OUR TREE! 

change

it's weird to think that i am putting jackets and hats and mittens on little bodies and heads and hands...it does feel like just yesterday i was sleeveless and running out the door to take the three kids for a walk around town...and now, snow. everywhere. trapped inside. going stir crazy...and christmas. oh how i love thee...but oh what a challenge. TO STAY SANE. to keep it real. to teach my children the story of christmas (so they at least KNOW it, even if we don't believe in all of it). to teach my children the fun and mystery of santa, while laying the foundation for what it really all means: FAMILY. and we got lots of that. and lots of love...so...it's hard. but a good kind of hard. a challenge i look forward to tackling little by little EACH year...so that they have fun and treasured memories, while also a clearer picture of the ins and outs of such a day...yay...and then once this day has come and gone THIS YEAR, we shall move. ugh. but it is a means to an end this time. we will NOT be moving in with parents forever. we are doing it SO THAT we can own. SOON. the details are still negotiable. but it's a huge fire under our huge asses...hehehehe...CHANGE. it sucks. but it's inevitable!