SILENCE

MY MIND AND HEART ARE ENGAGED IN A WAR

SORTING THROUGH BULLSHIT MINUTIA LIKE
BOOKING
APPOINTMENTS TO HAVE A 285 DOLLAR FILLING
PUT IN A TOOTH THAT WILL FALL OUT IN 4 YEARS
AND
DESPERATION, SHAME AND PANIC
OVER THE ELECTION OF REPUBLICAN
SCOTT BROWN
TO THE UNITED STATES SENATE

THERE ARE LAUNDRY AND BILLS PILING UP EQUALLY
INSERTING STRESS INTO THE AIR
AND THERE IS HAITI GETTING HIT; AGAIN TODAY
RUNNING INTO THE STREETS, ASHY WITH FEAR

THERE IS A CAR IN THE DRIVEWAY
IN NEED OF MAJOR WORK OR REPLACEMENT
THAT IS SIMPLY UNAFFORDABLE
AND A FRAGMENTED POLITICAL SYSTEM
DIVIDING FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS
CAUSING CONFUSION AND HATE

THERE IS EATING AND DRINKING TO
EXCESS OUT OF SHEER
BOREDOM AND ESCAPE
AND DIRE NEED FOR FOOD AND WATER
ALL OVER THE COUNTRY
AND THE WORLD

THERE ARE DISHES THAT NEVER GO AWAY
AND AN OVERLY CLUTTERED ATTIC AND BASEMENT
AND FAMILIES ACROSS THE NATION
LOSING THEIR HOMES ALTOGETHER TO
FORECLOSURE

BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN my REALITY
AND the REALITY
I CANNOT FEEL BALANCE
I CANNOT FEEL STRENGTH
IN MYSELF
AND SUBSEQUENTLY IN
THE WORLD AROUND ME

I HAVE LOST SIGHT OF THE BEAUTY
OF SIMPLY ENJOYING THAT WHICH IS
GRAND
IN
LIFE

I SUFFER SADLY FEELING
FULLY IMMOBILE
TO PARTICIPATE IN any REALITY

SIMPLY
SITTING
AND
STARING

AT STRIPES
AND SHADOWS

MAKING NO PLANS FOR A NEXT MOVE

UTTER SILENCE
WITHIN AND OUT

i FEEL STRETCHED TO THE POINT OF ACHING
i FEEL TIRED TO THE POINT OF TEARS
i FEEL ANXIOUS TO THE POINT OF WILTING

WHERE IS MY MIDDLE?
WHERE IS MY TRUTH?

BREATHE.
IN AND OUT.
OUT AND IN.

SURELY. I WILL FIND IT.