matrimony.

i am trying to find you
in the rage and the tears
and the silliness and the passion
you are all of this and more

i am trying to connect
the dots skipping odd
numbers in hopes to create
a new image


i am trying to love you
wholly
i am trying to
love me honestly
i am trying to fit a love
into a heart that has
become obese and confused

i am trying
and yet there is no try
there is do
and do not

for now, i will stick with
i do.