things that don't make sense to me:

things that don't make sense to me:

how i can sit outside in a snowstorm and just smile from the inside out at the kid's SHEER GLEE just playing in the snow. They are the truest illustration of "being in the moment". Moreover, I can even just lay in a snowbank for minutes on end and allow snowflakes to flutter carelessly from the vast sky, only to land on my glove, where I simply MARVEL at each of the unique designs that snowflakes can show off! Which then allows me to contemplate *impermanence* when I watch each one melt away...ONLY to then, an hour later, *bitch and complain* about all the shoveling. and snow tracked through the house. and wetness on the bottom of my pants. Grrr. Stay in the moment, mama. Be happy!

so it is confusing that we seem to have a failing economy and parents in town all talk about "how tight times are" and "budget issues" and then everywhere i look, another family is taking off to disney for a week. or buying a new car. or dressing their newborns in baby uggs. i don't get it.

i don't understand how the two and half hours of preschool can accomplish anything with the children, seeing that i get NOTHING accomplished in that time. weird.

i don't understand why big business and banks are getting bailed out of their crisis and debt. while i wallow in panic about how to dig out of this hole. i really just don't get it.

i DO get that i will continue to give give give. all of me. and the universe WILL repay me. somehow.

i just have to believe that THAT makes sense.