what, what

i think it's pretty remarkable that this was 6 months ago. it feels like yesterday. is this how the rest of my life is going to go? like my eyes blink and *these two* will be taking THEIR kids on vacation? no. it will not. i will make sure to slow it down. to be in the moment. and even more than being in it. i will take some time like this, to RECALL those moments. assigning even more meaning to these memories...so they will never be taken for granted. it's easy, especially in our cultural climate, to always being thinking toward the future. to think of what next. what we NEED next. things. stuff. trips. appliances. cars. but i think really, all i need is them. tony. ezra. remy. and time with them. we have slowed down quite a bit lately, and really tried to just *be* together. lots of family movie nights. lots. and sleeping in together. and taking walks. together. i want us to not get distracted by *stuff*. stuff gets broken. gets lots. old. replaced. relationships, even in death, are forever. making the most of mine, now.