gripping slipping done

things change in her mind
daily
special

times and thoughts
and flickers of the heart
trigger
constant doubt
worry about

decisions
and emotions
needing to wrap her
head around her heart
exhausts
and exhilirates

questions
of legality
suitability
and eligibility
increasingly gritty

and wry

so, develops like
a slow forming
pimple,
a haven of anxious
worry in her chest
that she constantly
confuses with excitement
pain

change like
moment's notice

reminds her
she is making choices

every

single

second

yet, she is never sure
what each one will
encourage her to feel
next

and she has ALWAYs
hated suprises

so it goes.